approach to anonymous work

So the basic approach is to present it as an anonymous artists work as Steve’s name is never mentioned in the works, as I said I don’t even know if his name is Steve I don’t know how I got that impression, so I won’t use the name. It will be presented as work by anonymous and I will simply be the person who found it. I never took any evidence of ownership from the files and they have no ownership information on them and the original hard drive is gone. All this took place years ago so I guess I just used a name from somewhere on the disk and assumed. I can’t really use the name Steve with any real confidence now so it is anonymous from here on in. It also solves the basic issues and gives me a way to present it with some respect to the original author, you can’t just slap any old name on something because it gives you an impression of the author and it becomes too casual where really the work is not just some casual la di da it is real work by a real author who is technically unknown. Sorry for my round about ignorance but this is the first time I have presented someone else’s work, really for me it is the story of finding it and the presentation in a show about making thrown away work into art, even then it is hard to justify but I can take that risk. The work raises issues about what is valued and a few of my works raise that issue because it is a concern to all artists. I always get myself into a situation, my other works are the same they just raise issues of value and relevance especially the one on the found laptop, most people just choose to ignore my work in the hope it will end. i still feel it is good to raise questions.

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Abilities and disabilities

Since 2010 I have been quite disabled from my condition, I have recovered a lot since then but I am quite fatigued easily. I do less graffiti partially because it is harder for me to feel motivated and well enough to do it. Rather than fret I have dedicated myself to more conceptual pursuits such as reading, blogging and making gallery art. I work small now and I have adjusted to it. I will still do some graffiti but it is getting a window of opportunity to do it in where I am motivated for physical activity. With my eldest daughter I speak to her on Skype but I haven’t got it together to see her as I find it difficult to get the motivation and organize a trip. Sometimes we talk and I seem disinterested but I am quite sedated and even find speaking hard. Occasionally at TAFE I can’t speak after 8 pm and can be quite disoriented so the earlier we do work the better and I ask questions early on to show that I am interacting. That really sums it up, there is a level of inconsistency of cognition and motivation that I content with on a daily basis. I can write and read quite happily though. Even after the movie today I was exhausted and was in bed by 6 reading. The last few years I have read a lot of books while in this state of fatigue. I am not complaining I get to work everyday and cruise, not because I am lazy but because that is literally my limit. By the weekend I am exhausted. So I try not to think about limits, I can achieve a lot through writing and my new art is mainly writing and sound. I can exert myself but it is very hard. It works on a physical level too. In 2010 I couldn’t run, now I can run for a little bit, I can walk fast. Initially when I got schizophrenia I couldn’t walk around the block, it was so hard. My initial medication helped and I could run. The newer medication gave me more mental faculties but brought back the physical limitations. The additional medication gave me back most of my physical abilities and less physical pain but it is very sedating. I currently have no psychiatrist as he retired, and I always had a love hate relationship with him because I felt he took his time and was too happy with initial progress rather than making me visit him more to get to see if it was really progress. I actually liked his style a low bullshit approach but I do question some of his decisions. At the same time I have a positive attitude and still feel I can achieve a lot but I see other areas where I may never be able to achieve as much. I can still do everything I did before but not as much, it is a slower approach which is why I write and think. I not going to power out pieces but think them through and create pieces that can be well formed and thought through. I still look fine and I am fine but there have been changes beyond my control and I will work within my limitations to create great things. I can see that when I was growing up I created a lot of work in a short time and I pushed through a lot of pieces in 2009 then my medication changed and I ran into issues. Physically I am no longer as capable, the schizophrenia got me but mentally I am quite sharp before 7 pm though mind you. I have a lot of ideas for galleries and I have a lot to say. Even though I post a lot on this blog I keep a lot of my core ideas off the site because they need to be talked about once they are shown. I won’t let schizophrenia hold me down but it has changed me.

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Reading science

I am loving reading about the history of science, it raises so many issues and makes you question so much about it. The fact that so much knowledge has been used to implement all sorts of techniques especially funded by governments for social control as well as control of agriculture and basically anything that can be controlled at different times for different agendas. It is a fascinating set of agendas and still people will do all sorts of unexpected things no matter how well behaviors or stimulus are understood. The dominant agendas change but everyone has there go trying to create outcomes and basically push some gain of technique hopefully making it as precise and effective as possible. Or if not an understanding is reached only to be pulled apart and put back together, it reminds me of Rick Hollands poem of the “airman” in Eno piece where there is an ever moving perspective lifting higher and higher. Really though it wants to see all angles and all perspectives, will this reach true understanding or is it as questionable as the Big Bang, one God one point of compressed matter is differentiation about differentiation? I love going around in circles and like this book, makes you wonder.

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Raspberry Pi competition

There are all of these fairly cheap arm Pi alternatives but a lot of them get that tag as the possible Pi replacement. All this journalistic jousting about this trumping that or the well known saying “blah blah killer” hopefully won’t start with the Pi. It most likely will because nobody has a better idea and it is dramatic. Really though the Pi in my mind is perfect because it just has enough features rather than faster this bigger that I mean how much power do you need to do a basic project? I remember cutting video on a pentium2, it wasn’t fast but it was fine. The Pi is fine especially with what I am doing why a quad core arm for something basic? I just hope this bunch of alternatives doesn’t end up as the “Pi killer”, a serial killing alternative to low powered devices with way more POWER!!!!! I couldn’t stand it with the iPad so over done and corny, every article was about the “iPad killer”. How about the “alternative to blah” I guess it isn’t as easily remembered a bit flat. I know, the “Ultimate Unforgiving Powerful Mighty Holy Grail Computer” unmatched in speed and size capable of unleashing a thousand demons. It is as though the writers of these articles are working for the world wrestling federation.

Just read an interesting article on sprawl

It is funny because everyone wants something done about urban sprawl but nobody is really prepared for the pain to implement it. Governments don’t want to touch it because they will become too unpopular. Labor is in a position to do something about it as they are so unpopular but really it is mainly a state issue. I like to blame the people because they don’t want the inconvenience really. If areas are over governed too people get upset, the current liberal government actually implemented some good reforms by taking away some red tape but there is still a lot there and if we are to tackle the urban sprawl (which is really too late coming for Sydney) we need bucket loads of red tape and planning. It will also cost money and spending money is frowned upon as a surplus is always great especially when you can’t drive a kilometre without congestion. What we need is more surpluses and less public spending so all the problems that cost money will solve themselves for free, at least that is the current plan.

Croods

Went to see this movie with my daughter, seriously I always cry in kids movies at the emotional bits every time. Quite embarrassing really especially when you are wiping away tears walking out of the cinema. They saved all the climactic soppy stuff right at the end too, I guess you have to finish a movie with an emotional climax. Serious soppy individual. It is a great movie for families. It has a very positive message about expressing ideas and how ideas can free us to see new things. We can change perspective and find new ways of dealing with problems. It touches on art, early cave art as a way we could describe goals and life and how we could use it to imagine. At first it is a negative story but the character with the most flaws learns to imagine new ways of seeing and has a complex idea that works and becomes a hero. I have been reading my book on movie plots and stories so I got a lot out of this movie definite winner.

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About Steve’s work

I wouldn’t want to profit off his work, or anything like that, I would like to just archive this piece and possibly have it viewed as an archive which it is. I wouldn’t sell it. It is important to respect peoples views and it is a piece of property. The whole piece questions digital property, so many people will torrent music that isn’t theirs and so forth and feel that it is fine as it is digital and reproducible. I found this work and extracted files from it, it is technically digital detritus, the computer was used for parts as it wasn’t intellectual material but at the same time it is. Very tricky territory. I mean I would hate to be the kind who creates debate but there is a lot to be said about the vagaries of digital material especially when it is thrown on the street. I currently have someone elses hard drive sitting under my table what is on that I wonder? I mean usually I find excel files and just general files which I normally wipe but I have a soft spot for personal expression. You won’t find me putting Steve’s views on this blog because that would be parading and all I want to do is have it on a mobile work that sits in a gallery for a select few to experience. The work itself is rather disjointed because you can come to it at any point in the piece and only get snippets, I doubt many will sit through the whole piece, I doubt anyone will especially when they are at an opening trying to ingest as much cheese and crackers as possible washed down with cheap wine and some good conversation.