I vaguely remember when google images first launched and there were a lot of science type biology images that I went looking for. Sometimes there were early conspiracies based around symbols such as the irradiation of soy milk for example and a symbol for that. I didn’t really care how factual any of it was, I just wanted material for graffiti walls.

Before the internet it was free street level magazines like 3D world or whatever was around like marketing pamphlets for shoes and clothing. When in abandoned buildings you just found stuff and then painted bits of it. So around 8 years ago I found drawings by schizophrenics that were really interesting. I saw how they conveyed energy through lines and waves.

So for a few years I went crazy for lines and realised in that period that you could never do enough lines. More recently I went looking for those more interesting types of schizophrenic drawings but saw that the internet through algorithms and populism had a false democratised representation of schizophrenia. A sort of daytime popular TV type of take on it. It was mediated and watered down.

So over the past few years I would find more interesting images in books, choreography and social media platforms that were not western in most cases. There is a tonne of useless crap on the internet but things just popped up and what I looked for was structural rather than pure sampling. The point of what I would do with this stuff is to paint it in such a way that it became something else.

Maybe I read too much into things but I could see how certain representations though impractical or nonsensical at least in a practical sense carried a form that was more important than any clear detail. It was meaningless entertainment but the story around it carried it over the line from its impracticality. Its impossibility made it attractive to the narrative. How can I say it in any other way, it is major propaganda or maybe minor propaganda at the same time that doesn’t inform you but fills you.

More spin for the win. So unbelievable and cooked that your mind has to make it possible just so you can be sure there is no reasoning left in your mind to break the narrative. The repetition is coming from different sources, there seems to be a debate but it is unified in a way that keeps you watching the pendulum. The pendulum though looks like it is going either from here to there but fundamentally it doesn’t have any destination or goal but to keep the same mechanics in play.