I ended up realising that in these crisis times you need to diversify everything you do. Rather than trying to step out of the system, choose old ways and new ways to deal with your reality. Then you can choose how much you want to feed the machine. So you do it on your terms. People understandably talk of the Orwellian boot on the face and screen playing 24 hour ads in your living room but there is the Huxley prisoner of your own pleasure paradigm. In a lot of ways they are not really comparisons but different sides of the same coin yet its not a coin but a diamond like structure with billions of faces. Each face is a reality facing in almost every direction but all of it was created with some kind of pressure, a kind of force. Some of that force is natural and also pure manipulation. Yet you have to admit nature is everything and also the master manipulator.

We blame nature for a lot of things. That isn’t just a grievance but a fact of life. We then blame everything else except ourselves. If you are in the trap for example, knowingly or unknowingly your not only at fault but in fault. I am definitely too lazy to escape, just another sitting duck. Yet to add to the complications I will gladly blame myself for almost anything that I can. I will blame myself for just being here. At the same time life goes on with some ad breaks. Even doing what I do, which I do by default, I still give myself a hard time but let myself off the hook. I am not harming anyone, yet I have to question everything, especially myself when really I don’t even know how to build weapons or fly a plane off an aircraft carrier and use precision weapons. I just get on the bus and train, while making visual art.

I am glad you know how to laugh because these days are a laugh a minute but it isn’t joyful laughter, it is more like a nervous laugh. Sometimes I see artists who I knew indirectly through old friends who are doing amazing stuff but they are too elitist to let me  exist on socials so see ya later maniac. I meet other artists who get cagey about what they do, they have to emphasize their importance. I haven’t even been on the attack. Why do I have to step down for these arrogant people? Why do you need to lessen yourself? You might not like it but there are billions of faces to the diamond. All life is diamonds. You don’t believe me, wake up. Otherwise sit in your nerve cage trying to escape. Don’t escape, diversify. We are all in this together and I try to let things exist. You can’t curate the survival of the planet by selling yourself as upmarket. Come back down to Earth.

Also all of the hate on immigrants that has spread the world doesn’t take into account that most white Aussies are completely drug fucked and how do I know? I have to hire people and the only reliable people I can find are immigrants. Other dudes have their schizophrenic girlfriend ringing up the business causing dramas. Other dudes are smoking ice and stealing out of the till. Honestly these people. Pauline Hanson isn’t going to change the reality. Most white bread dudes are cooked. I am actually no different and had to work on myself and even then the only reward I get for that is more hard work. A lot of people want it handed to them and claim every immigrant is on the dole. So is every other person just wake up. Things are complicated and all these pollies want to do is capitalise. Like every other person.