Never really talk much about spirituality but have had some experience with practical applications of it. You know when you have to redefine something you are basically kidding yourself and well you can look like you have been shopping around as though its about the best deal. My first experience with anything that could be defined as spiritual was when I went to karate at around ten years of age. To finish a basically gruelling class the teacher would get us to meditate. This was my favourite time compared to the commando rolls and bashing that went on beforehand. I left karate after a few years but I continued to meditate right up till now, it is my go to retreat or better yet treat to end the day. I read some books in my teens about meditation but I never really understood them. In my mid twenties i joined a meditation group with a guru etc and did that for around two and a half years living for a year in an ashram. It wasn’t a hippy ashram it was full of Indians and there was a lot of conservative stuff like you better be an accountant kind of stuff but beautiful mornings at five giving offerings and connecting with the universe.
So whats all that about? Connecting with the universe aren’t you already in it anyway and isn’t that scary? Well when I meditated and when I still do I connect to an energy which is arguably everywhere. Sounds a bit vague right well yes it kind of is until you do a George Harrison manoeuvre and feel it! The issue I had with all this connecting stuff was that I knew that a spiritual life per se wasn’t for me at least not as an end in itself I had other stuff to do like eat tofu : )
It wasn’t until I went back to my childhood karate teacher in my late twenties and after a few years was introduced to a spiritual master that I got practical understanding of this energy and how I could refine it and use it. Of course that spiritual master was basically a crazy Chinese guy who just couldn’t shut up but he had some very interesting viewpoints and practical skills. Of course if I blurted out his weird anomalies that are a bit hard to believe anyway you would know that I am basically crazy. But that in itself isn’t an issue because I know what people are capable of. But it isn’t about doing strange things it is about surviving and thriving in what can be an inhospitable world. But all this mind bending stuff isn’t where the journey ends or begins. As he said it is practical and anyone can refine the energy that is around them it isn’t all about walking on water or breakdancing.
To be honest after dealing with this Taoist master and all this physics bending strangeness I basically had a mental breakdown and even though I kept practicing it I suddenly found myself at the local church. By now you are probably on the floor laughing but it is actually true, this stuff just went on and on. So in my mid to early thirties I became a Christian and weeped with the best of them. I was never Christened as a child and after talking with the local Minister of which being mad I saw strange animals (seriously it gets better) as he spoke to me somewhat like when I first visited a Jungian anylyst while part of that meditation group the analyst seemed to transform. But after all this meandering I had continued to meditate and practice my Tai Chi while occassionally picking up the Bible. There you go as crazy as hell but what I want to get back to is that energy. The energy of the Holy Ghost is energy and you can feel it, maybe you don’t want to. The Tai Chi is about experiencing energy and refining it, maybe that is a bit odd for you. Anyway that is enough vague and odd things for this evening, take away, it isn’t really spiritual but practical.