I was reading an article today about the loss of orientation in western society. The way nothing seems to grab our attention, especially what should be shocking revelations about political manoeuvres and disasters. Even in the past few months there have been tales of mass neglect in the face of natural disasters, there has been an ongoing genocide for over a year. The article was saying that we have been bombarded and tested in every way but we still don’t know what is going on. The noise has literally turned up to filter out any response. Although one healthy response is the support for the Palestinian’s and the backlash at their continued destruction.

That is the only signal that keeps getting through. In return all we have is mass censorship, corruption, destruction and neglect. In a way you can see the perfection of a system set up many decades prior. A system based on zero responsibility (that is hundreds of years old by the way) and the ongoing anti-human juggernaut of destroying any sense of self awareness. I saw an interview today as well about the problem of nurturing and that most major religions have nothing to say on nurturing young children and supporting young mothers let alone societies either.

In my experience I could find nothing that I needed as a young boy in the world only in that my first memories were quite traumatic. Religion to me seemed to be an answer to my fears but then religion never seemed genuine either. Music it seemed, a manufactured solace was a temporary relief and it was Hip Hop that told me something of human behaviour. Though the positive messages were mostly obscured to not scare people off. The sum of my life experiences are one of disorientation at all times anyway. I never felt there was a clear way ahead.

By chance martial arts and mostly internal martial arts provided convincing answers. These revelations for me have mostly alienated me from what I see as a very unemotional and impartial societal system dedicated to exploiting human vulnerability. It provides a noise of problems and solutions. It has never wanted to nurture you though people try to find answers. It doesn’t want you to be self aware and self directed. Hip Hop was a way groups of people banded together to create self value. Yet the system will always want to devalue the core values with implied money and status that still leaves people with no real answers or peace.

The absolute garbage touted for decades of “living in an economy”, the needless endless competition and suffering of most people is not healthy and that is the economy, sickness. There is a mother in my building who runs her own business. She is a mother, accountant, secretary, tradesperson wearing every cap to make ends meet. The constant stress to most people is respected and should be but what about peace of mind, stillness and a community? Instead we have competition and stress. What about nurturing a mother and child? Everyone is too busy, too stressed and running the rat race. Humanity keeps fading but essentially there is nothing without going inward.