People suddenly check out of life, it’s sudden, unexpected and at my age you can’t keep up. You can’t find a moment to truly reflect, at least I find it hard. When I was younger and someone died I had time to absorb it and reflect. It would take time to be able to let them go, years to move on, now there are more. More people who you thought were never going to leave, they were legends, supporters, friends and then you realise the transience, the impermanence and your world is more about memories.

”How can he be dead?…..how?” He kept repeating it. “You are joking, how can he be dead?”. That is why people go inward, they nurture their souls, they heal their bodies. They clear their minds of distractions and pointless pursuits. I am here, I am here, yet within I am empty. The emptiness allows the energy in, the positive spirit. The outside world lurches, looking for a weakness, a way into you. The outside world always wants to find a way in, it wants to swamp you, make you misstep.

There is a frequency, a low energy state, a stable place turning on a point, circling and spinning. Drawing the circle many times over, finding the transition and changing direction. Said Guan Yu, “Under the greenwood tree is no place for a hero’s foot. You had better abandon this depraved life and return to the path of virtue. Do not work out your own destruction.” 318 / Romance of the Three Kingdoms Vol.1