I was thinking about how you need to save some energy for yourself. Rarely I meet people I connect with and then I sometimes give too much of myself. I am more meaning younger people, some people have these huge on and off connections and you’re just one part of this unofficial network. What is important though is if you are willing to give time to people you need it to be seperate from what you need for yourself.

What I need at the moment is to focus on Qigong and health. Most other outlets just need to be turned off because they require energy that I need to save. People will ask you how you are and disappear before you can answer, even though their selfishness is obvious it isn’t due to being nasty but more their own depression. They become selfish but are struggling within themselves.

I suppose I pull away inevitably, not because I don’t care but because I need to work on myself. The person suffering has to do the same job but they won’t do it. That is why it can look selfish from a different perspective. They won’t work on themselves and keep trying to find answers outside of themselves. Everyone has some idea or another that they share but what is missed is that all of your problems are actually within your own body.

It doesn’t mean you created a particular trauma or issue, it is just that when it occurs it lives within you. It is hard though to understand how to correct it. When you are young your body is still open enough to allow new things in. As you get older it is harder. Sometimes then it is impossible but it becomes even worse if you don’t find a way into yourself.