Sometimes you have a friend who breaks through everything holding them back and they leave you in a cloud of dust. I tried not to let it get to me and remember that they need to get ahead and do their thing. I tried to keep in contact and it was mostly met with silence. Sometimes you can wonder why you bother or you might wonder why you have a loser attitude and accept that attitude. I suppose long term friends just accept me for my faults as well my good points. We sometimes get a bad word for something but mostly you will hear from the friends who accept you unconditionally. It is rare.

It is good to challenge yourself but what happens when your friend who broke out falls on their sword? When they make some really bad moves and burn too many bridges. It normally has to do with drugs. They were clean, healthy, together, great prospects, and access to funding for projects. Then a little bit of this weed, a microdose, smoke some harder stuff and bam land flat on your face from a great height. Even though I was cut about the long silences I never wanted to see that person fall. I did see them occasionally and really they were always busy. I hope they get back on track.