The past two years threw up some challenges. I didn’t have a breakdown or any bad episodes or relapses but I felt some cracks appear in my cognition. I have had one person at work recommending I retire because of the building pressure in other areas of my life. Another person at work went on the attack indirectly painting me as not knowing what I am doing yet struggling to do what I do everyday.

All of this is just water under the bridge, what gets me is how people can subtly undermine you even if they have good intentions. Once a weakness appears, a crack in the armour dialogues change. For me I have had to pull back from a lot of activities as there are issues in play that are difficult to navigate. The problem can be time and how to adjust to things out of my control. How to look after yourself in a world that doesn’t run on predictable patterns.

That has been the biggest challenge for me the past two years, unpredictability and lack of structure. This year mind you was better but 2024 was a basket case. I suppose the positive is I am aware of the issues and I am always adjusting things and trying to rest. My sister and brother in law have had to bear the brunt considering they have the space for my Mum but what needs to happen which is hard to accept is my Mum going into care. There are some potential problems that come with it but it should fall into place.