When you get older you can become your own best friend but it isn’t common. At least as far as knowing yourself and what works or doesn’t work for you. Say if I partake in alcohol for example I pretty much instantly start having mental health issues. The same for porn, drugs, you name it. If it is somewhat negative I really feel it. What I realise now that I am older is I had the same issues when I was younger but I didn’t have the capacity to realise. Capacity being ‘experience’ mostly but also understanding.

Mostly when I was younger I had nothing to contrast my experience with. Also I am not trying to make other people follow my example I am just talking from my own experience. Everyone is different and you could be in a position where it doesn’t affect you. But at the same time everything has an effect and now that I am older I really get it. Also I don’t care what other people do. Some people thrive on what I feel is negative. I totally get it.

I have heaps of examples I could spout here but I am not going to bombard anyone with my understanding or experience. What I know works for me, I know. What people have to go through to get to self understanding is not my business and sometimes self understanding is about suffering and I would say most people gladly suffer. Like I said I don’t care in the slightest. I am always available for people and people who know me well know that. I am just saying that experience can make you realise natural laws.

Most people though are like me in that they don’t care in the slightest either. They have their minds made up. They are locked in. Locked and loaded. The misery must continue at all costs. There are scales and spectrums of misery and disappointment. Some people find a way out but most people don’t even realise there is an alternative. Nobody cares but our ears prick up at some light weight truths. Then it’s the next distraction.