I saw a quick video the other day and the person was talking to an audience that wasn’t in shot. The speaker was critical of someone asking a question, they were vaping but you couldn’t see it. He said something along the lines of you think you are cool with your vape but you are not doing anything. He pointed out another unseen member of the audience. He said how that person was in a competition and that they were potentially doing something. In that they were being competitive and through competition you could potentially achieve something.

I mean that is the bottom line for most people, competition is potential glory. It is universal, everybody admires it and just being cool or being a pest is frowned upon. With my Qigong training I am kind of working on myself. I am tired of going on about it because you basically just miss your own needs. I need a lot of work, that is certain. What I need to do is lay off the big meals. Sometimes I eat things I shouldn’t and kind of pay for it later. I am cutting down portions and avoiding stuff that sets me off. The good news is I know exactly what I need to avoid.

I am at least clued in through self awareness but you see a friend and then things go south, it takes me about three bad days to get to that tipping point. Everyone is different but I just follow the basic elemental theory and that normally works. There is a hell of a lot of stuff that I would never touch even if someone offered me money or hoes. I am not going near 99% of stuff in the supermarket for example. Fast food no way. I would be better off eating cardboard. I don’t want food that was manufactured in a lab and industrialised, cardboard would be healthier to be honest.

Say you are a competitive person, you work out every day at the gym, you push yourself. You try to beat your personal best and sometimes outdo your friends. It is all good and I need to beat my personal Qigong best. Although I don’t want to push myself in the same way. I want it to be gentle and I am hoping I can be my own master without whipping myself into submission. Yet lately I have made some small gains in flexibility and I know some self control will bring gains. Yet they are subtle and I need to keep working on myself and hopefully in a few months I can look back and know I have made some good progress.