Recently I have cut off an old friend. People normally know a lot but it isn’t about knowing the right thing to do, it is about actually doing the right thing. You can know anything at all but what you need is to put it into practice. Some people want to be gangsters but what have they got to show for it? What are the rewards and where are the rewards? They don’t exist, it is just an attitude that keeps creating nothing.

It is not important what I think about this or that but what people think in their own heads. I am trying to sort my own shit out rather than live in some kind of fantasy world. Life just keeps marching on and people need to sort themselves out to keep up. Otherwise you get left behind. If your life is a mess, do something positive everyday. That builds. I have been at rock bottom for various reasons and I realised I had to build myself.

The past few years or so I have been quite brutal in the way I approach certain ideas, like I have rejected a lot of stuff that is immature. I tend to play things differently to the expected narrative. Only in that I can’t be bothered parroting certain postures. It is a waste of time and it doesn’t win you friends to be honest. In a way once you hit my age, even if you are losing the game you can’t waste time with certain attitudes.

Let me repeat that, even if you are losing the game you have to press on in a constructive way to keep building. People are always glad to put you in your place and so I have to be the same. I have to be prepared to do what I do and press ahead. It is a battleground but some integrity and stability in life only makes it easier. You have to create your vision however humble it is and wear it because it is your life and your journey. My old friend has to help himself.