I have been having a mild digital detox the last few days. I have been thinking about a few things. Nothing very clear though just moving through thoughts. I thought about attachment and how you can become attached to someone. Twice in my life I met someone and became instantly attached in that I knew I wanted them to be in my life.

At times like the second time this happened I tried to test the energy. In that to me it comes down to energy and how things slot into place. So I deleted their number and tried to forget about the attachment. At some point the person popped back up again and really inside I had still been attached. I would say I still am attached but what I do is just let it be.

There is so much noise in peoples lives so when I think I might send a link to an article or some interest I normally think about how lovely and quiet it is. I think it is so peaceful so I don’t send anything. I just rug up and sleep. The most amazing part of my understanding of these rare attachments is I know in advance all of the great things that will happen. I know of the creativity and constructive enjoyment of art.

Of course what I feel or think is not necessarily understood initially as constructive. For me I don’t have time to waste. Normally constructive things will happen and it has happened. So win, win. Nothing though, ever comes easily but some things are so rewarding. Recently I saw a few pages of an article in a film art publication with some writing by Soda Jerk so being curious I bought the publication.

I really need to stop spending money on books. I am addicted to books and I do enjoy reading artists’ ideas on occasion. I was also pointed in the direction of a podcast about addiction by my cousin and it was two hours long so I broke it up over a long day. I normally avoid podcasts but rarely (every five or so years) I listen to poetry podcasts.

Some of the work I have listened to, especially from the ‘Poetry Magazine’ in the states during COVID/TRUMP was so mind blowing. It was pure gloves off nihilism. I set up an account on RedNote and I really felt it was too addictive for me. I initially wanted to see Tea culture which is great but then graffiti popped up, attention seeking pretty girls and war footage.

So I just had to limit my interaction. It is just too streamlined for click bait. It is in most parts quite pedestrian but it is just enough to hook you in. It never really gives you exactly what you want, which is like all of these platforms. Then you want more but it is only going to keep your interest. So coming back to attachment it is important to not make that into expectation. 

For example at one stage the person I was attached to did something that triggered an old memory. I got upset but in the end I realised I had projected my past onto their life. So I pulled back and thought, if it is the energy directing this, Just let the energy do the work. I don’t really have the time to put in so much of my own personal energy. A lot of things happen outside of your own control. They just work on their own. That is the real energy.

You just let it do its thing. That is real trust. You trust nature and its process. Also it is seen as inevitable that humans will create super machines. I am not doubting that but what I want to emphasise is that the scale of replacing nature is too great. In some ways AI is like the new Titanic, it will just sink and kill lots of people who trust in it and believe in it.

Nature is too complex and too vast, when you fly over Tibet you see landscapes that have never been touched by humanity. They are too harsh. How can a machine deal with that? In truth it won’t have to, instead it will find the weak point. Yet ironically nature is supplying the energy it needs. Even machines need the brilliance of nature to exist at all.