I made some aerosol work a few years ago based on drawings from life. One was based on drawings of shrubs, the work on the wall took on another look altogether. I recently showed the work on socials and someone said it looked ‘schizo’.

It got me thinking about how nature is fair and has order and chaos built into it. Both the logical and illogical play off each other and what I liked about drawing the shrubs was the way order and disorder played off each other.

I liked the way a shrub looks like a shrub but also can look like something else. A shrub as an idea is generic but the way it grows has built in randomness that doesn’t get too random. It is bounded but can explore its surroundings in any way it wants within what it can do as a shrub.

With humanity and technology the experience of being human is always the same but the understanding of what it is to be human is technological. Yet what I see is interpretations rather than experiences. I am not directly a technological being.

Yet I am influenced by technology in how I can think but if the quality of thought is not directly from a tool, as tools can only start to think now, I am at a loss and in many ways cease to think for myself. So technology does the thinking for me even without the thinking tool.

Yet besides this my survival is still based on nature and natural systems. Technology can’t replace nature. You can replace your thoughts with technology but the real loser isn’t nature, it is humanity. The task of replacing nature is too great. It can never happen fully.