Qigong was a good session, we talked about Karma and how bad things that happen to you are mostly from within yourself. If I look back at my life, especially my teenage years I can see quite clearly the chain of events that led to a few big problems I had later on. There are some things where I was too young to have control over the bad things but they weren’t really absolute negativity because I learned some life lessons.

When I started drinking alcohol I was around 12 years old but I never enjoyed alcohol. It was like a necessary evil where you got drunk and let your inner demons out on the world. Vandalising things, being drunk and brash, I honestly hated it but I drank alcohol until my mid thirties although it was not a negative after my teenage years in the same way. It was only bad when I was young because I hadn’t really dealt with my own issues enough.

Started smoking dope at 16 and at first it seemed ok but it was worse than alcohol because I started getting all of the negative dope symptoms after a year. I couldn’t relax without it, I found it hard to concentrate so I tried to stagger my use to give myself time to reset. When I was 19 I had to keep away from it, and it was everywhere so I got trapped here and there and had to find new friends at times.

The more obvious karma problems are people running their mouths off about people. Even if it is justified it gets back to people and mostly people try and get you back in some way or another. Your enemies can be your allies at times and your allies your enemies you can’t afford to tell people what you really think. Especially about people because people can be major obstructionists if they don’t like you. Also it might not even be your fault but that’s the human condition.

Even stuff that I don’t like and I talk about on this blog I am mostly trying to be constructive about my criticism. Because even stuff that is pretty shit can keep the lights on or I can’t say much about it because it is a hot button topic that can get misconstrued or get you profiled. Back to karma though when you really look at it you normally can see the chain of events and these days my life is mostly low key and relaxed because I am staying out of the fray. Life is great when you don’t need drama, the best I can do is control myself.