Definitely out of the flow of things at work, I am working hard but I am not getting the general flow of communication and I need to be nosier in general. I like the way things are slowly building for me in my creative life. I am taking my time and trying to make the most of opportunities. They are small wins but I appreciate even the most simple things.

The best part of it all so far is I am not overdoing it. I think last year I kept up momentum and it was fine but I need to settle into a slower routine this year. Getting out and walking plus seeing places I haven’t been to in years is rewarding. I don’t want to just be painting and have a narrow focus. It is fun seeing places where there are old memories and new experiences.

I was at Qigong the other day and my trainer said I was doing pretty good. I smiled but inside I feel like I am full of aches and pains as I get over my injury. I must admit when I am training I am mindful of posture and the energy is great. I am painfully aware though of my limitations and I use these to focus on expanding my physical range.

In my mind I can switch off easily and without effort but I want to focus on being stable and grounded. I don’t want to go into some kind of oddball place where I get all vague and high minded. It is best to not intellectualise and just let things be. You can’t force these things, especially when you are meant to slowly integrate experience, physical experience, your mind is physical.