It is a bit stressful this time of year, I want to free up and do things but I also want to take it easy. I guess it is conflicted because you still have to be present for work and turn up but you want to introvert into a shell and hide away. I saw Kraftwerk in concert last night and it was great. It is hard to relax as well because of the escalation of conflicts in the world. Currently there is the ongoing conflict in Ukraine which has lost the limelight. The horrifying civilian genocide in Gaza is ongoing and also Myanmar has had an ongoing civil war for over two years.

The conflict in Gaza will definitely escalate and has already started expanding into shipping routes in the Red Sea. I suppose the next flashpoint could be the South China Sea with provacatory moves by Western navies to push China into a conflict. It is weird because for a few months I find myself crying every now and then. All of the disasters and the potential disasters to come make me a little sad at what Western nations have forfeited over the past few decades and I get a nostalgic crying moment because it will only get a lot worse.

Crying is a good way to release negative energy and in Sydney the whole environment is very negative and has been like this for years. Although the sad part which makes me cry is that the trajectory is for even worse social breakdown and problems that will make Sydney a hell hole in waiting (kinda already there in a way). If things happen otherwise I will be glad but so far we are trapped in a very bad cycle and seeing what is happening around the world shows a deathly bleak and corrupted Western system being anti-human.