I had a lot of negative symptoms such as my senses of touch etc were askew, I couldn’t feel the sun on my skin or a touch was weird, when I drink I get strange sensations, like I can’t feel the sensation properly so I stopped drinking as it was no longer pleasurable. It set off negative symptoms and then if I drank on and off over a month I got positive symptoms like delusions. Sometimes I wish I could have a beer and feel good, the reality is different it feels kind of strange, like my nerves don’t know how to process the sensation.