alternate realities

Technically with schizophrenia I have been living in a number of alternate realities, it sounds confusing and it has been. It mainly happens in my dreams, I have been living these other lives .Last night I resolved a few of them suddenly I knew what was real and what was false, I have an alernate university me, an alternate high school me and an alternate working me. A friend in the dream showed me what was real. That I had been to uni but had lost my mind and had to redo uni in a delusional dream and other scenarios in delusional dreams. This has been going on for years, mostly in my mind as I dream but it has been in the back of my mind too. When I realised that I again knew what was real it was a relief I understood that I had been unwell and reality was clear again so I could fully live in it again rather than going over my life in frustrating circles as an alternate person. What was nice was that people were happy to help, Suddenly they were there for me and wanted me to be healthy and live a full life. The dream was about finding love and help when things have gone wrong. I better understand this illness, it is mind bending but there is understanding in me and in the greater world.

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